one year could undo

th biggest mistake i have made of my life. sometimes i wonder if things would have been different if i picked that one person over her. why did i choose her? sometimes it hurts thinking about it. sometimes i think about it over and over. sometimes i always just think about it because i miss it. i find myself wanting to feel that touch. sometimes i find myself going to see you in my dreams. sometimes i sumble upon the memories of what we used to be. i always wonder what could have been. what would have happened. i tend to find myself listening to songs reminding me of you. i look upon the clouds that makes me think about the days we laid in your yard, always talking about how much in love we were. how we would just lay in your bed talking hours upon hours and just holding each other without knowing there was another world out there.

there was once a beautiful girl walking down the road, her name was Kenya. she was walking as she was floating along the horizon. the light reflected off of her, her beauty having all the men fall for her. but all she wanted was for one guy just to listen to her and not just fall inlove with her because of her beauty. she just wants a friend, someone to hang on too, to talk everything with.

one day i was walking to the store when i saw her walking down the road. i took my chance and i went over and sparked a conversation. she said hey with a sense of excitment but also shock. i asked her how she was doing and she said "I'm doing fine, how about yourself?" then i knew i could atleast be her friend.

She then said "I'm suprised you came over and talked to me." i asked her why she was suprised, and she said "guys in this town don't normally talk to me. they are afraid of my beauty and think i will just turn the other way and walk." the words that came out of my mouth were the smartest thing i have ever said. "well i wouldn't do that, you seem like a really nice girl. Yeah you're pretty but i know you're not the kind of person who will blow someone off."

she then smiled. i asked her if she would like to hang sometime, maybe go grab a meal. she then smiled and said "that would be nice, you can come over my house tomorrow." so i did and we became the best of friends, then of course we became a couple. i knew i was uncontrolably in love with her. i knew we would last, we were perfect for each other.

she then looked worried one day after about four years of dating. i asked her if anything was wrong and she said she was afraid but she could not tell me. she then asked if she could have my book that my brother gave me as comfort. i told her "of course baby, i would do anything for you." i gave it to her and i saw that she was more relaxed.

then a couple of months later i noticed i haven't heard from her for a while. then i decided to call her, RING RING RING... no answer. i then called her parents and they said they have not heard from her. then i started becoming worried, then i thought she had been weird since that day a couple months ago. then i thought she left me and moved away with another guy.

then one day after i realized she would never come back for me. i woke up for my graduation day then i got up got ready and walked outside and there she was. then my life was complete again

the road and the devil fought for my death but the road bought it

have you ever thought about the road buying your life? you're thinking, "How can the road buy your life?" well drunk driving, massive car wrecks and people dying in these terrible incidents. that's how the road can buy your life. when your in a car alone and you're driving a far distance don't you just feel like you're on a journey and you never know when it's going to end? like the road is your life and you're traveling it going 90 miles an hour. your life is going before your eyes and you don't even know it. you're going down the road just listening to some relaxing music and then all of a sudden. BAM! you get into a wreck then you notice you are pinned down by the car and you can't get out. then you think oh lord this is my time to go. i didn't even get to tell my family i love them. you know the saying you don't know what you got 'till it's gone? well it's true, i have become familiar with this saying about two years ago after losing my foster brother jason leftwhich. he did not die of a wreck or car related accident. he overdosed but that made me realize that saying was completely true. and now i think everyday what could happen. anything can happen to you, a friend, or a family member into a blink of an eye. just remember you're not always promised tomorrow. all these thingswe do to avoid death but how can we really escape it?

i fought it for a long time now

and that day that has changedmy outlook upon my life since that day. zach, my brother was in a car wreck, a very bad one and he and all of my cousins were injured. everytime i'm driving i think about that time when they were in a car wreck. car wrecks and almost dying about family members will touch almost anyone. here to this day i still think what if they had died. i would not know what to do. does anyone live with themself when they lose a family members in a car wreck? jacob my cousin was hurt the worst. permanently he nedded reconstructive surgery on his face. quite frankly they are all ok now.