why choose poison rather than just living?

some people make fun of the things i choose to live my life by
straightedge, what does it mean to me?
i beliebe it is a way to keep me alive longer and tell others about what could happen to them
i mean drugs has taken loved ones like jake nelson and we all loved him
but shouldn't we take this time into consideration?
he died from overdosing, if you ask me some people
what do you think jake would want you to do? do you think he would want you to do any drugs?
some people would be like yeah he would! but if you really think about it he would say no, he would want you to be alive and he would want us to live our lives.
i went through the same thing with my foster brother, jason leftwhich. i loved him alot as family and he overdosed as well, just not on the same things.

i mean we're 16-18 year olds getting "wasted" and getting so "blown" that we don't understand what is going on in the real world or thinking about the future.

i'm writing this blog so kids our age or anyone else would not make the mistakes our beloved ones have made and had came into the sudden stop of life. we all know they are in a better place but they would still be living if they wouldn't have made those choices. i know my foster brother he had a kid on the way when he died. her name is jaycie leftwhich and she is 2 years old now and all her life she will wonder where daddy is. so once again straightedge to me is a way of lifestyle to keep me alive and helping people with their problems.